THE SHOCK FAMILY

A feeling I didn't think I would have... Not wanting this year to be over. Feeling like tomorrow I should just be done grieving. He was 85 and had dementia for crying out loud. Why can't I stop the tears today? Why am I still in my pajamas and it's noon? Kevin so sweetly asked me to go to lunch with him. Don't so much feel like eating. Just being honest.... I miss him. I'm thinking a time machine would be nice. I want to go back in time and see him sitting in our living room on Schultz St. I long to tell him all I've been thinking this past year. I thought I had said everything I needed to say in those days before he passed. I realize now... that it would take a lifetime to say all I needed to say. So today... I write him a letter. A love letter of sorts. A note to say thanks. To say what I would say to him if I had that time machine... Hey Dad ~ First  of all... I love you -- more today than ever before.  I have so much to sa

Our lives changed forever. Dad was admitted into hospice. I was entering into one of the sweetest months of my life. Who knew I would look back on that time with such fondness? I'm sitting on my Dad's swing watching the sunset and reading my blogposts from then. First time I've reread them. I'm so glad that there is a record of all that went down that last month. I can't believe how much I had forgotten. What I remember most about that time is how supportive so many of you were through the whole process. So many encouraging words and so many prayers on our behalf. This past year hasn't been easy. So many more tears have been shed than I would ever have expected. So much time spent missing my dad. So hard to watch Mom move on without her husband of 62 years. God has been present though... I'm hoping to blog some this month and just put my thoughts out there. Thoughts on my dad, Heaven, this life etc. It seems like the perfect time to