THE SHOCK FAMILY

It's been 1 month today. Am I supposed to be over it? Feels like I am. Definitely not over it though. I think I thought I would be by now. He was 85 and had dementia for crying out loud. I don't think it's about missing him all the time. More about the waves of sadness that come out of nowhere. Last night Kevin was watching a movie before falling asleep. The Natural ... a 1984 classic. Dad and I used to watch it together all the time. I think I liked it mostly because of Robert Redford :). I was so excited when he told me it was only half way over. Not too long into watching it... I just started weeping. Pretty sure Kev didn't know what to do with me. He immediately turned it off. "No! Don't turn it off. I love this movie!" I said through my tears. He then immediately turned it back on. And I wept some more. Pretty much cried myself to sleep in his arms. Where in the world did that come from?  I really have been doing great. Teary

Here is the video I spoke about at Dad's memorial service. It's of our granddaughter... She and her momma were staying with us while Dad was home on Hospice. Late one night we were looking at old pictures to use for Dad's slideshow. Sweet little Kessa found a picture of her mom and dad when they first started dating. She held that picture in her hand and as she looked at it, huge crocodile tears started running down her face. We were all just sitting there stunned as she let us know how much she missed her daddy.  It had been a few days since he had been there... and she knew it! Alyssa decided to put her husband on the phone.  As 3 yr. old Kessa spoke (cried) with her daddy, our Lance decided to get out our ipod and videotape it. Here it is... Wait!  First... make sure you pause the music at the bottom of this page. After that night... and after we had watched the video several times,  I began to think about how much I was gonna miss my daddy when he wa

We are back from our cruise.  It was an amazing trip.  God's timing is so very perfect.  I just sat down to spend some time looking at all the msgs I received on Facebook... about Dad, about our trip, and for my birthday... so many people saying so many encouraging things.  Again, God's timing is so very perfect! The funeral home and the memorial service were such a blessing to our family.  Seeing old and new friends/family show up to give us comfort and lots a hugs meant so much to all of us. I came down with a nasty cold on Wednesday (the day of the memorial service).  I literally slept through the whole next day, knowing that I should be packing because we were leaving for Port Canaveral on Saturday. Kevin kept reassuring me that we would get everything done in time to leave... and as always, my man was right. When we went to board the plane the kids were where they were supposed to be, Mom was where she was supposed to be, and I knew for a fact I was right where I w