His Grace is ENOUGH for me!
I am sitting here this morning thinking and praying about how to say all I want to say right now. I feel like I might have had a breakthrough with my fears this morning. I have had more than a few "lightbulb moments" in my struggle with anxiety. This revalation was brought on by my hearing about Stephanie Spielman's death last night. As soon as I heard it, my stomach was in knots. I wish I could say that it is because I felt bad for her family and friends, but if I am being honest... I was thinking about me. I KNOW!!! How absolutely RIDICULOUS!!! When things like this happen, I immediately try to imagine myself and my family going through it... and I get scared...it's so selfish... it's what any good hypochondriac would do... bring the focus back to me! One thing that I was taught long ago in my battle with hypochondria was that God will not give me the grace for my imagination. The people who are actually going through the trial... those are the